Do you ever wake up feeling like there's a walrus on your head, scraping your skull with its tusks and generally behaving like a darn nuisance up there?
Over the last few days I have had a crazy weird tension headache that just will not go away no matter what I do - I've tried upping my fluid intake, I've tried painkillers, I've tried sleeping, I've tried long hot baths, I've tried getting fresh air, I've tried to relax (not easy when your head feels like it's going to explode) - but nothing seems to have helped.
It's only pretty rarely that I get these kinds of headaches - maybe three times a year - but they are just such a drag that I haven't been able to function properly, and it super sucks.
As well as the ongoing pressure pain in my head, I've been having the most horrible nightmares for the last couple of weeks, and am being haunted by anxiety dreams involving my loved ones, which are absolutely the worst type.
I've always been a worry wart, but you kinda know something's wrong when the worrying starts to get painful. It's true that I'm worrying about a lot of stuff and my head/heart/life is in bit of a transitional place lately, but I've always kinda thought that was normal for me to worry, and that if I wasn't worrying something is wrong. Now I'm not so sure.
Is it normal to worry?
Is it normal to worry so much?
Is it normal to worry so much about things I can't actually control or do anything about?
I've been taking anxiety meds since my crazy panic attack last year, and although they do seem to help, I'm obviously going through a blip in my life which is causing my brain to overload with negative emotions and anxiety. I know I'll get through it, but it could be a gradual process and I'm not sure how to begin. People are constantly telling me not to worry, and I know they mean well, but they are just making things worse. It's all well and good telling someone they need to calm down, but if they are suffering from an anxiety disorder, saying things like that will no doubt make them worse - being told to calm down when you don't think there's anything wrong with the level of worry you're experiencing will just make you worry about the fact that people think you're worrying too much. It's a never ending circle, and I know I need to find a way to branch out from it, but it's hard work.
Does that make sense?
Perhaps I just need to watch Neon Pegasus on repeat a few more times:
Do you have any tips for helping to relax/getting rid of all this brain fuzz?